Here's to being stupid...

Sometimes life makes us choose between creating the memory and capturing it. Unfortunately, we can't always do both. I was forced to make this decision last night when Connor and I had an impromptu banshee run through the park across the way from our house. It was beautiful out; cool enough for pajama pants and hoodies but we rocked our bare feet in the wet, cold grass. I have to admit I have one of the happiest little boys you'll ever meet but he lit up that evening, like even I hadn't seen. He just ran, here and there, he chased me and I chased him. We ran and laughed and giggled like crazy and I was soaking him up, his little blonde curls blowing in the cool evening breeze. As he smiled I had to make that choice; stop, drag him back to the house, get the camera and pray he wants to play again... Or enjoy him now, miss capturing it but get to have that memory forever? I chose to enjoy him... So, I don't have any fantastic pictures from that night I am sorry to say but I plan on making this evening run in the park a habit so I hope to capture this beautiful little boy, who is all mine, running and laughing like a banshee soon enough.

We then retreated to the shower since we had dirt all over our piggies :) He sat on my lap in the hot shower while I washed his hair and I was just overcome with love. Overcome with disbelief that I could have ever been blessed with this little piece of heaven who loves me unconditionally like nobody else in the whole world. It's funny what pops into your head when you're emotional; I was sitting there, again, just soaking him up and all that came to my head was that song:


I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
You've got, the most unbelievable
blue eyes I've ever seen 


And you can laugh but I just started singing it to him. Love is the ability to be stupid; whether it's singing to your little soapy headed boy in the shower, giggling in bed with your husband or having a blonde moment on the phone with a friend... If you can't let yourself go enough to just be stupid then you don't deserve to love.. and deserving or not, if you can't be stupid you're never gonna have it anyway. I love what love does to me, love makes me stupid and I am stupid for love!


I don't have the strength to write about today, not right now at least.. yeah, it's been one of those. But, amidst all the drama and stress of today I am reminded of what wonderful people I have in my life who care about me. I have the best husband and best friend a girl could ask for both of which saved the day for me today, dunno what I would do without them :)

I am going to leave you with my first stream of pictures, they are random since like I said I didn't get any pictures from our run last night but I think you'll enjoy them just the same. I dunno who couldn't enjoy my little ray of sunshine.

 

-jenn